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I was born in Mesa and lived in both Arizona and Utah. I attended four different high schools and moved back to Mesa my senior year. I love to travel and explore; I studied abroad in England, Scotland and France and had a blast. Music and writing drive me. I am a hard worker, when I am motivated to be. I am a passionate girl who loves people. I love friends but I also love my quiet time. Most importantly, I love to Love. I am a writer, an educator, a learner, an explorer and yes, a Mormon. I am blessed and I love my life. I am currently serving a mission for the Lord through the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints in Italy until January of 2016.

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My Motto
Love and Be Loved

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Love and Loss

The famous poet Alfred, Lord Tennyson once wrote:
I hold it true, whate'er befall;
I feel it when I sorrow most;
'Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all.
His words speak so true! Once a person has loved, they always have that memory to hold with them. But if you never get that chance to love something or someone, you don't have anything to go back to when you need it. 
Lately, the words of this poem have been running through my head with all the different things happening in life.
Things that I miss:

  • Riding my bike through the back streets in Utah to watch the sunset.
  • Being the youngest person in a group of older people.
  • Sitting on the roof outside my bedroom at night.
  • Easily writing my own masterpiece every week.
  • Having someone I can talk to at any random moment needed.
  • Children.
  • An organized bedroom.
  • Hiking the steep, rocky trails along the Wasatch Mountains.
  • Cool summer nights.
  • Not having to ask for a hug from someone.
  • My pillows.
  • Cameron Earnhart.
  • Singing.
  • The spontaneity of youth that seems to have slipped away. It's still there, but I feel like someone has tied it down.
  • Utah- my sister, her family, the landscape, my friends whom know everything about me, the mountains.
  • Being myself.
  • Deep conversations with a friend.
  • Living in my memories.
  • My brothers, who were at one point considered "cool" by me.
  • That time in ninth grade when I didn't have to go to school. I thought I was the best I could be, I wrote everyday, I truly enjoyed myself... for a few short months.
  • The way things used to be.
  • I miss a lot, a lot more than I can say.

Things that I Love:

  • Watching the sun rise when I run in the morning.
  • Being surrounded by so many attractively incredible members of the male species ;)
  • Being happy!
  • Ice cream on the weekends.
  • Driving in the car.
  • My sisters.
  • Books and bookstores. (Does any body else get an overwhelming feeling of happiness when they walk into a bookstore?)
  • 60 degree weather in the winter!
  • Occasionally sleeping in on Saturdays. 
  • My dog, Buddy.
  • My parents.
  • Little children.
  • Smoothies and delicious bread or rolls.
  • Learning new wisdom.
  • Spontaneously doing something adventures!
  • Remembering good memories.
  • Laughing and smiling. I love my smile!
  • The Gospel of Jesus Christ.
  • Music!
  • Riding my bike in the breeze as if I were flying.
  • Going on trips and exploring new places.
  • Cute things I can snuggle.
  • Deep conversations with a friend.
  • People watching.
  • (Optimistically thinking) I love who I am and I love my life. There are so many things I could list that I love!