Rambles

One thing I have learned I put out to Karen Lee (Chelsea's mom) as well as through my experiences regarding work. If you have homework, you should stay up and COMPLETE it before you ever go to bed. It should be priority. At one point in my life I do remember this being the case for me, maybe in seventh grade and early tenth grade when it actually mattered. However, "hard work" hasn't exactly been a strong teaching/learning point in my family and thus I have had to train myself to know of the importance of work and that if you don't work, you don't get anything. It's a very basic concept in which I should understand, and yet after 200 months of life it does not click in my head. Imagine that. If you had any idea the burden this is for me... well, I don't think anyone but maybe my siblings would know. But even then, they aren't the youngest as I am.

I've been thinking a lot lately. My brothers need to get married and them and my sisters need to have more kids! I love having kids around, it's miserable and lonely being the only kid at home. Even when they say "I'm going to bite you" or "you're a meany" or "I don't want to play with you" or when they are evil, rude and LOUD, they still send off a vibe of love. It's nice. And when I don't get love, where else do I go? Guys don't exactly run down the street with their heart in their hands awaiting my approval. So these are some reasons why I want to get married and why I need to have kids:

• Babies make you joyful :)
• A spouse can give you wonderful input and help that no one else can.
• You get lots of cuddles, snuggles and hugs all the time!
• You and your spouse WORK as a team, you help each other grow. 
• It is the only way to teach someone what you know that you, yourself had never been taught.

There are at least three more really good reasons but I can't seem to explain them. Get inside my head. Or don't. It's a pretty scary place. I started writing a story about this once, I'd like to make it a book. It would be certainty exciting without a doubt. But that is a topic for another day.

Now, I must go pee and clean my teeth before I cry myself to sleep in snuggles with Mr. Teddy. I spent a lot of money today, and now I am emotionally recovering from it. Mainly from the action of going shopping. I despise it. Shopping puts me in an angry and depressed mood 2/3 times. Try to figure that out! I just plain don't like it.

Strange

     This past weekend we packed the entire house, loaded the truck, cleaned, and moved out. "Late" Yesterday morning my parents left with the cats and dog in the car, while I stayed at Chelsea's house and we went to school early. NO FUN! The whole weekend I felt nostalgic in everything that I did. The past two nights, I slept most awfully and now I feel the world is surreal. Today was the last day to step foot EVER in Westlake High school... 25% bitter, 75% sweet.
I am quite upset with myself. I needed to have a 15-30 line poem memorized for a stupid TMU (test, you have to take and pass every test with 80% or above to pass the class) as well as write a satire essay on a political cartoon. Due to my insane tiredness and amount of being over stressed, I didn't do it, broke down and gave up. FAIL... There's just one more thing to add to my summer of fun to-do list.
As for everything else, I hope my parents are enjoying themselves. Hopefully my sister Liz will help put my parents in their place =)
I have more to write, but at another time. I also will add some pictures someday.