My Dilemma.

I want someone to talk to. So here I vent my recent feelings to you, my dear reader:

I am a writer (the kind that breaks all the rules). I am going to college to major in education and become an elementary teacher. At the core of my heart I just want to take science, history, psychology and such writing classes to expand my knowledge so that I can be the writer I need myself to be. If I could study and practice writing, I would write more often. 
I undoubtedly want to be a wife and a mother, with a husband I can love endearingly with precious children whom we can love and teach forever.
Above all, I want to serve my Heavenly Father and do in my life those things that would make him smile.
I don't know what the next chapter of my life is going to be, but He does. And I trust that.
Now and again I think to myself how great it would be to get married, not physically go to work, take the classes I want to take and just be a better writer! Maybe even get published, too.
However, that is not reality. 
Reality is that I should be prepared to support my husband with a job if anything ever comes up in the future. I have goals to fulfill, and as a prerequisite I've got to be a teacher. I'm young, and so I can't get married just yet (I think. A boyfriend first would be good). A mission? I haven't reached that chapter yet. I feel that I am right where Heavenly Father wants me to be, for now.
Sometimes it is fun to dream though...